I love these two quotes. They are from a book of Puritan prayers that I’ve really enjoyed reading. I have a hard time putting my thoughts into words a lot of times, and this book seems to be able to say exactly what I am feeling/thinking.
“Forgive me for serving thee in sinful ways – by glorying in my own strength, by forcing myself to minister through necessity, by accepting the applause of others, by trusting in assumed grace and spiritual affection, by a faith that rests upon my hold on Christ and not on him alone, by having another foundation to stand upon besides thee.”
I like the first quite because it is so easy for me to get overwhelmed and feel like I am sinking under the pressure of the fight. But I have to remember that I content with a vanquished foe – It is finished! Christ has already secured the victory!
And I the second quote is such a good description of me. I am always trying, and trying, and trying to “get it right.” I know that I can’t “do” Christianity, but for some reason I still try so hard. I am constantly trying to be a “perfect Christian,” and it kills be because its not possible. It is Christ’s hold on me, not my hold on him, that saves me. I can rest in that and stop trying so hard to be perfect all the time. If I was able to live a perfect life, Jesus wouldn’t have had to come save me. He came in order to live a perfect life and give me credit for that life! The perfection of Jesus should be by focus, not my own striving for perfection. My striving is in vain, but his was victorious and he has let me share in that victory!